Usually, in the mainstream business and retail world, we don't share our struggles. But rather, we choose to present the finished, polished product. We act as if struggling means failure, or stumbling makes us "less than." I am sure there is some marketing value to this. Everyone likes a winner and the impression of success can actually attract real success. Perhaps also, in the historically "male" world of business, this is a form of posturing that men employ as a matter of course. Maybe, women in business put on these same masks and hide our struggles in order to fit in and compete in the male domain . Or maybe, we just let our fear driven egos get the best of us too.
As I move forward into Phase II of my business, I am finding myself right back in the fear and uncertainty of dealing with new and unforeseen obstacles. But I can see that three and a half years later, I have grown. Instead of my ears ringing in panic with each snafu, I think about what is being asked of me. Instead of viewing problems as the enemy, against which I must do battle, I now view them as my guide. Perhaps leading me elsewhere. When hiking, we walk around the thicket and follow the trail between the obstacles. We don't begrudge the tree or the boulders that block our path.
Most recently, I've come to feel that through my frustration, I am being guided into compassion and softness. I feel connected to the many others like me who are working to find solutions and overcome obstacles. I believe I am also being guided back into creativity and beading as way of side stepping the technological barriers before me. I had put so much of my creative expression on hold in order to get the website and webstore going. I sorely miss that magical part of my life. I will still sort out the technical glitches. But, today, I realize that I cannot make this the focus of everyday's work. It will happen in the background, while I put my creative life back in center. You will have to stay tuned, to see what I mean, when we do finally go live.
Meanwhile, I look forward to being back in the glow of creativity, wrapped up in that radiant energy, where time stops and the heavens shower me with inspiration, like divine confetti. As I write, the vision becomes clear. I see, spread out before me, little beady pools of color and glimmering light. I must go, now. You understand.
Fleur du Jour with Margo Field
2 Saturdays, 6/14 and 6/21
1 - 4 PM, $55
This lovely necklace can be worked up in many flower variations. We have 2 on display in the shop. Stop in and be captivated.
ONGOING FREE EVENTS
- Wire meet-up with Sylvia Abeyta - Tuesdays 1-3 PM
- Friday Happy Hour - 4:30-6:30, free pattern and refreshments every Friday throughout the Spring and Summer.